Old hypothesis:
- I have always been overweight because I ate too much (for a variety of reasons) and didn't exercise consistently. Severe low-carb diets helped me lose some weight between pregnancies, possibly because it eliminates many foods over which I have little self-control.
- I had limited success in severe low-carbing is past time because I just couldn't stick to it long enough to go into ketosis consistently, even though I tried off and on for years. The nausea and fatigue were just too hard to get through even though I knew it would be temporary.
- I decided to commit to swimming twice a week, for its own sake (I wanted to be a person who exercises) in January.
- After 6 months of sticking to it, I hadn't lost any weight, but I was much fitter and I had learned that I was capable of change. This gave me confidence.
- I also, around this time, asked God to remove all attachment to food that wasn't the Eucharist.
- Some combination of grace and my new confidence caused me to think I should and could try eating less food, a possibility that had I had not believed would work for me before.
- I tried it and found myself able and willing. It seemed especially luxurious not to be constantly denying myself bread and pasta and fruit as I had been for years, even though the quantities were limited, and that helped me accept the smaller quantities of everything.
- I began to lose weight immediately, because I was consuming the appropriate amount of calories and not cheating, and the string of successes motivated me to continue for 6 months, at the end of which I was normal.
Proposed alternative hypothesis:
- I grew up eating a shitload of sugar and refined grains and almost no fresh vegetables, and my insulin response feedback loop was seriously screwed up.
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Years of what felt like trying and failing to stick to a severe low-carb diet were, it turns out, years of adhering with growing consistency to a diet that was moderately restricted in carbohydrates overall, quite low in sugar, and high in fiber and fat.
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My improving diet was improving my insulin response; although I couldn't see it happening, I was getting better, at the cellular level. (Three data points: my children's birth weights. In 2000 - 10 lbs 11 oz. In 2003 - 9 lbs 4 oz. In 2006 - 9 lbs 0 oz.)
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When I started regular exercise in January, and stuck to it, the exercise also improved my insulin response loop. This was truly new as I had never exercised consistently before for this long.
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By the start of May, although I didn't know it, I was healed of my hyperinsulinemia. My body began burning the excess fat reserves and functioning normally for the first time ever.
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Not coincidentally, that's when I was moved to ask God to remove my attachment to food. (Depending on your opinion of such things, you may interpret that my ill body had been creating fears that kept me from asking until right then. Or you may interpret that God moved me to ask for a favor exactly at the time when I was prepared to receive the answer I hoped for. Personally, I think there is not much difference between the two, humans being equally animal and spirit, and the whole loved and cared for by the God who designed us; but either interpretation fits into this hypothesis equally well, so choose what suits you.)
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Some combination of grace and my newly healthy body caused me to realize that previously I had been eating far more food than I needed. Now that I was physically healthy and/or God had removed my undue attachment to food, my old habits seemed insane and gluttonous and I didn't have any desire to eat that much anymore.
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The cravings and hunger that were ill-matched to my energy output now gone, it required no special willpower for me to restrict my calories and carbohydrates to a moderate level. I enjoyed my food, I continued the same exercise regimen, and my body continued to burn the excess fat reserves, quite steadily.
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When I reached my desired weight of 108 pounds I began the harder work of trying to keep it steady where my brain wanted it, instead of letting my body decide what to do.
Now you tell me... which do you think is the better explanation?
I don't know which is better or correct. God plays a big part in both of them--His grace can't be underestimated!
I was wondering if you thought that adding the exercise in before the major weightloss thrust was part of the equation. It certainly is in both explanations.
Tabitha
Posted by: 4ddintx | 03 January 2009 at 09:22 AM
I'm really pondering this birth weight thing, too. I've always done well on the gestational diabetes screen while pregnant, but my babies range from 6#14oz (#1) to three in the 8# to 8#6oz range. Then the last 2 were 9#10oz and 9#8oz. This cellular level hypothesis certainly explains that more than any other I've heard.
Posted by: 4ddintx | 03 January 2009 at 09:27 AM